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I belong to no one.
I am nothing but bone and flesh,
A locked heart to which no one has a key.
A forgotten glace,
An awkward dance,
Beneath the sullied sun.
I am like no one.
I am nothing but fog and smoke,
A porcelain doll with shattered lips.
A forgotten dream,
A faded gleam,
Beneath fluorescent light.
And though at night you think we match,
Puzzle pieces without a catch.
I can see our edges are not flush;
My red is not your red,
As we lie in the light of day.
I belong to no one,
Just as no one belongs to me.
But you belong to her.
I think that's clear to see,
And though I am nothing,
Nothing but pouted lips and breathy moans,
Lingerie and painted toes,
I can see my reflection in your eyes...
Yet all I see are lipstick and lies,
Beneath the winter sky.
I know you belong to her,
With the sun cast down upon your frame.
Though I am in shadows,
The truth still remains-
You belong to her,
And that will never change.
But while I'm clothed in shadows,
The dark makes you quick to forget,
And our truth difficult to see...
Though I belong to no one...
You will still say...
That you belong to me.
I am nothing but bone and flesh,
A locked heart to which no one has a key.
A forgotten glace,
An awkward dance,
Beneath the sullied sun.
I am like no one.
I am nothing but fog and smoke,
A porcelain doll with shattered lips.
A forgotten dream,
A faded gleam,
Beneath fluorescent light.
And though at night you think we match,
Puzzle pieces without a catch.
I can see our edges are not flush;
My red is not your red,
As we lie in the light of day.
I belong to no one,
Just as no one belongs to me.
But you belong to her.
I think that's clear to see,
And though I am nothing,
Nothing but pouted lips and breathy moans,
Lingerie and painted toes,
I can see my reflection in your eyes...
Yet all I see are lipstick and lies,
Beneath the winter sky.
I know you belong to her,
With the sun cast down upon your frame.
Though I am in shadows,
The truth still remains-
You belong to her,
And that will never change.
But while I'm clothed in shadows,
The dark makes you quick to forget,
And our truth difficult to see...
Though I belong to no one...
You will still say...
That you belong to me.
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I think it's too late to wake up now
I'm on the "right" side
of this nightmare
as my hand idly reaches
toward the edge that separates
where choice is a privilege
or non-existent.
I can rest my head
on dreams that could convert
hard work into opportunity
where I'm hardly spared
a second glance
and the word 'no'
is probably at least 80 percent-based
on merit.
My virgin eyes are still blind
to bullet-ridden walls and shrapnel fodder
where I can walk free, without my eyes
reluctantly trailing behind me, but maybe I should,
and the only blood I've seen
is mine.
I am at the "right" side of this nightmare
not because the people in charge are doing things right
but because I happene
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These physical reminders
(this spiderweb caricature of
your soul, the stars you laced
around my neck)
give my reality too much room
to accomodate you;
eventually
both of us will be choked
out.
Exiling my image of us
was exhausting;
the process
(of which I was more
of a bystander than a
dictator)
was undone
/with the ease of a weary knot/
by a single
look
mirroring the moment
that I learned how tightly
I could cling to you/
how tightly you would
let me.
Maybe eons of eons before
measurement of how /big/ the /bang/ was
you and I danced and learned each other
through cosmic conversation,
because the only thing keeping me
from asking f
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“Goddamnit, Mary.”
He was on his lucky. “Great. Just great,” August spat, grabbing the last cigarette and throwing the empty pack on the ground among empty red Solo cups and an empty handle of vodka. He fished around in his pocket for a lighter as he walked in the dark, muttering to himself, drunk and irritated. “This bitch takes off in the middle of the party to God knows where and I’m out of cigarettes. Fuckin’ great.”
It must have been three or four A.M. by now. It was the end of the summer and it was dark and there was this eerie fog that clung low in the sky, casting a reddish orange haze
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I made a poor judgement call. I wanted to be cared for; I wanted someone who wanted me, who craved me, who adored me and put me up on a pedestal...
This person came to me in the form of an older guy in an open relationship with his girlfriend. So I started to see him and everything was okay except, as I quickly realised, he wasn't in an open relationship... his girlfriend didn't know about me... he was having an affair and I was the other woman.
Though he wasn't my type and I had no interest in having a formal relationship with him I had grown fond of him as a friend... he clearly liked his girlfriend enough to stay with her... but he wouldn't tell her.
He liked me and wanted me and would tell me how much until 6:15pm everyday when she'd get home, then it was radio silence. He'd see me right after she'd leave and would hide me from his neighbours... then turn around and give me money and gifts, cuddle up with me and watch house of cards, listen to me bemoan missing my ex and such. I thought I could handle the secrecy and the lies... but it gnawed away at me and I grew to get upset with him for not being honourable and telling her, not for my sake or even his sake but for hers.
Finally I couldn't handle it. I felt sick thinking about if his girlfriend even suspected. I felt sick thinking that I was capable of knowingly doing this for my own selfish gain... I know what it's like to be with someone who is unfaithful... but at least I knew... she didn't even know! He didn't even have the decency to look her in the eye and go "Honey, I've been seeing a girl and I still love you and I will do whatever it takes to make it right." If he loved her she deserved to know at the very least. Before I'd leave I'd try to leave clues, small things that maybe he wasn't being faithful to her... if he didn't have the balls to tell her, maybe she'd ask... I'd "accidentally" leave hair elastics on the bedside table or school notes under the couch, anything she might find out of place and ask him about. I even started messaging him after he specifically would tell me that she was home and he needed to go. She needed to know and she needed to know the sort of guy he was one way or another... I don't know if she ever found out or not.
Finally I gave him an ultimatum; either tell her and potentially keep me, or leave me be. He chose to not tell her and try to keep me. The final straw came when he decided to make me duck down in the backseat of his car so his neighbour wouldn't see me and then lectured me about me having no self-respect (because I let a photographer take artistic nudes of me [that turned out awesome!])... he also lectured me about how I devalue myself by letting men see me... and that I am his and no one else's... so I left.
He still tries to get a hold if me, but I can't be bothered playing his game. He was right I needed to have some self-respect... and self-respect doesn't come from being the other woman... it comes from choosing not to be the other woman.
This poem is dedicated to Kevin, without whom I never would have written such a piece.
This person came to me in the form of an older guy in an open relationship with his girlfriend. So I started to see him and everything was okay except, as I quickly realised, he wasn't in an open relationship... his girlfriend didn't know about me... he was having an affair and I was the other woman.
Though he wasn't my type and I had no interest in having a formal relationship with him I had grown fond of him as a friend... he clearly liked his girlfriend enough to stay with her... but he wouldn't tell her.
He liked me and wanted me and would tell me how much until 6:15pm everyday when she'd get home, then it was radio silence. He'd see me right after she'd leave and would hide me from his neighbours... then turn around and give me money and gifts, cuddle up with me and watch house of cards, listen to me bemoan missing my ex and such. I thought I could handle the secrecy and the lies... but it gnawed away at me and I grew to get upset with him for not being honourable and telling her, not for my sake or even his sake but for hers.
Finally I couldn't handle it. I felt sick thinking about if his girlfriend even suspected. I felt sick thinking that I was capable of knowingly doing this for my own selfish gain... I know what it's like to be with someone who is unfaithful... but at least I knew... she didn't even know! He didn't even have the decency to look her in the eye and go "Honey, I've been seeing a girl and I still love you and I will do whatever it takes to make it right." If he loved her she deserved to know at the very least. Before I'd leave I'd try to leave clues, small things that maybe he wasn't being faithful to her... if he didn't have the balls to tell her, maybe she'd ask... I'd "accidentally" leave hair elastics on the bedside table or school notes under the couch, anything she might find out of place and ask him about. I even started messaging him after he specifically would tell me that she was home and he needed to go. She needed to know and she needed to know the sort of guy he was one way or another... I don't know if she ever found out or not.
Finally I gave him an ultimatum; either tell her and potentially keep me, or leave me be. He chose to not tell her and try to keep me. The final straw came when he decided to make me duck down in the backseat of his car so his neighbour wouldn't see me and then lectured me about me having no self-respect (because I let a photographer take artistic nudes of me [that turned out awesome!])... he also lectured me about how I devalue myself by letting men see me... and that I am his and no one else's... so I left.
He still tries to get a hold if me, but I can't be bothered playing his game. He was right I needed to have some self-respect... and self-respect doesn't come from being the other woman... it comes from choosing not to be the other woman.
This poem is dedicated to Kevin, without whom I never would have written such a piece.
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Very good job. Especially when you realize after you leave such a situation you gain your respect back.